My Dear Eternal Spiritual Master and Father,
Hare Krishna! Please accept my respectful obeisances unto your lotus feet! All glories to Srila Prabhupada! All glories to you!
Namah Om Vishnupadaya Krishna presthaya bhutale
Çrémate Jayapataka Swamin iti namine
Namah Achäryapadaya Nitäi-kåpä-pradäyate
Gaura- kathä dhäma- däya nagara-grama-täriëe
Namah Om Vishnupadaya Krishna presthaya bhutale
Çrémate Bhaktivedanta Swamin iti namine
Namas te Särasvate deve Gaura-väëé-pracäriëe
nirviçeña-çünyavädi-päçcätya-deça-täriëe
Guru Maharaj! I feel very happy to write this offering to you, to the most elevated person in this world as far as I know. I am seeing this personally that you are beyond your body as you dedicate your time completely in the service of your guru, Srila Prabhupada and the Supreme Lord Sri Sri Radha Madhava.
Whenever I feel tired I think about you. I am only 58 years old, but, I have already started feeling that my body has started dwindling as I am experiencing pain in each and every part. So, each time when I am unable to bear the pain in the body I only think of you and try to console myself.
My life has gone through a major change since mid-2018. By that time I had already spent a lot of years outside India (29 years). So, after due discussions with HG Shrivallabh Prabhu, HG Harilila Prabhu and of course with my wife, I relocated myself to India. This was after leading, preaching and guiding devotees in Gaurangadesh (Dubai) for more than 15 years. Gaurangadesh was handed over to HG Sriranga Krishna Prabhu and HG Gopigana Mathaji in Jun 2018 after due training for 1 year.
In June 2018 when I came back to India I was fortunate to be able to help and assist your sevadharis when you were admitted in the Stanley Hospital in Chennai for the Liver and Kidney transplants. Since Chennai is the place where I grew up in my younger days, the local language was my mother tongue and this was helpful in many ways. After your transplants on 15th Aug 2018, I then came to Mayapur late Nov 2018 as part of the JPS Seva Committee. I also spent the next month in Gauragadesh to help and guide the devotees there.
In Mar 2019, HG Acintya Caitanya Pr was communicating with my wife and me and wanted us to be Co-Managers to serve you in that capacity in your office. Sumedha Gaura Krishna Pr was leaving at that time. This was a splendid opportunity, though I was not sure if I will be capable of managing the same due to language problems, as I can talk English and Tamil well, but not Hindi or Bengali. However, we were asked to manage your office and we took it as our fortune to be able to do so. It is only your mercy that we have now managed it for 1 year, though I am NOT sure if it is up to your expectation. Kindly bestow upon us your mercy so that we will be able to serve in a way that meets your satisfaction.
We are trying to do our best to serve you in your office. Please guide us if we make any mistakes as we are full of mistakes and require your help to be able to rectify and purify ourselves. This is because we have spent more than 2 decades in one of the most materially opulent places (UAE) and hence have a lot of things that we need to change and adjust in the spiritual place (Mayapur).
I have personally seen that my many anarthas have gone after we came and settled in Mayapur. This is primarily due to your mercy and blessings. I am still left with a lot more. Kindly show me your mercy so that I may come out of this totally and please bless me enough to be your worthy disciple.
I request you to also kindly forgive me for all the mistakes and offences committed at your lotus feet, knowingly and unknowingly, as a kind father would forgive his immature child.
I pray to Sri Sri Radha Madhava, Sri Nrsingadev, and Sri Pancatattva to give you a long and healthy life.
Your eternal servant fallen son
Ramananda Gaura Das